New Classes, New Routine, New Me???

Time: 9:51??
Location: The library (of course!)
Listening to: Apocalypse 13 by Katie Clarke

Ok,
So, I've noticed over the past little while, I'm not like I used to be. I used to be really creative, smart, and all that jazz. I used to love to read till my heart was content, and write until my hand got sore. I actually used to be really good at writing. Now it's just.... "blah" I guess.
People always used to call my smart, and ask me for help. Now, I'm the one always asking for help. I don't know what's changed in me. I wish I could read and write like I used to. I still want to, but I can't keep my attention on anything. I get so distracted so easily.
Yesterday, Mr. Jones was talking about how the media has limited our attention span to 4 seconds. He used the example of music videos, the shots are only 4 seconds long, and that's how our attention spans are.
I've actually noticed that. At the doctor's office, I have to force myself to read the articles that interest me in the magazines. And even sitting here typing this, every once in a while, I have to go play Solitare, or look around the room. When I'm listening to someone's iPod or MP3 Player, I get bored of the song really easily.
So, this really brings me the point of: if our generation is like this, what will our children be like? My generation rarely values morals, intelligence, or anything like that. It's all about materialism, sex, drugs, and booze. Just listen to one of the songs on the radio, there's a good chance there's going to be a reference to alcohol or sex. Or the whole song could be about it. And when I browse through the songs on people's iPods, there's some named some pretty disgusting things. How I love The Cottars, Casting Crowns, and Josh Groban is times like these.
Music has such a powerful influence on people now, so these people who are listening about having sex with as many guys/girls possible, what are they being told? They're saying, unless you get laid all the time, you're a loser. Even my Christian friend (who will stay unnamed), who I've known for just about my life, who goes to all the church functions and used to be such a strong Christian, has had sex with three different guys, one wasn't even her boyfriend. And all the girls I grew up with in the church are just really... wordly now I s'pose. As Jesse said, "They've all had their share of fun, and are still having it." It just makes me think, who am I supposed to look up to? I seriously do not have a Christian role model. How am I supposed to stay a strong Christian, especially in this school, without someone to help me through it?

And yes, I do plan having children, if I'm able, if not, I'm going to adopt. I want them to grow up in the Christian religion, and I don't want their generation to be as bad as mine. I know it'll be worse. I don't want my daughter to grow up in a world worse than mine, a kid just doesn't need that. On Jason's blog, I read a poem, called "If I Were the Devil". It's an amazing poem, and it goes by the Devil's point of view, and what he would do to the world. All the things described were horrible. And the truth is, most of it is part of our everyday lives. I'll post it on here later for everyone to read.


Anyways, enough of the depressing "my generation sucks" stuff. My journalism class was fun yesterday, and I guess my teacher used to rent my great-grandmother's house after she died. I actually remember cleaning it out so he and his wife could move in. And I think I might actually do good in French class. I remembered a lot of stuff from last year, and understood it. Yes! There's some hope for passing french class this year!

Annndddd... I got my iPod yesterday!!!!! It's a blue, 4 GB nano! And I love it. Right now, I have 657 songs, 2126 photos, and still have 1 GB left. Can you believe it?? I couldn't. I'm amazed. At the moment, I'm listening to Stand by Kendall Payne, which I believe was on the Sister CD Katie sent to me. Which reminds me, I want to make her a CD. And I want to use an old CD case, and make the cover just all pictures from all the years, ahaha. I have tons, more than 2000 to be exact! I think it'd be a fun little project, and a surprise for her when she gets it in the mail.

Anywho, I'm going to finish up my game of Solitare and get going, I will talk to you all later, and remember to leave comments so I know who's reading!

Love,
Melissa <3
(who is in love with her iPod she's not supposed to be listening to)