Last night, my laptop stopped working. There's something wrong with my harddrive. I should've seen this coming, it hasn't been working right since February. And, being the horrible procrastinator that I am, I didn't do anything about it. Now, there's a chance I may have to get everything wiped off it. The thought literally, almost makes me break out in tears. I can't bear to have all my music and pictures GONE just like that. They're both so important to me.
My hair straigtener's also broken. It's been on it's last legs for a while. I had to use my very first straightener today. It's complete shit. And my hair looks horrible wavy/curly now. That's all I heard on Friday from Jeremy, was that my hair looked really bad the way I had it, and I should have straightened it. Well, Jeremy, sometimes I just don't have energy to spend 30-40 minutes on my hair each morning, so fucking deal with it.
And I ended up breaking down crying to my mum when she was telling me how to make supper this afternoon. I never do that. It's so unlike me. I guess I'm just so tired of having everything around me break or not work, then have absolutely no money to fix it or replace it.
One good thing, though. I got my brand new iPod in the mail on Friday. My dad gave me my birthday money a month early, and I ordered minutes after he did. It's 4th generation, red, and 8 whole GB. I'm pretty much in love with it. Other than the fact that my iPod stereo doesn't charge it while it plays. I can deal with that, I think.
I was tracking in on the FedEx website ever since it was shipped out. It was fun, but achingly so. I wanted it to be here so bad instead of China, then Arkansas, then Indianapolis, then finally Saint John and Dieppe on Thursday night. I realized when it was in Indianapolis, that the damn thing's done more travelling than I have. I need to get out of this town so badly.
Tomorrow during math class, I plan on counting the total number of days until I can finally be done my first year of grade 12/second year of grade 11, and when I can finally breathe easily. I'm so ready to be done school for two whole months, and spend hours at my beach in the sun. Summer is so much easier. I miss it a lot.
The Spring youth conference is on Friday. And I'm not going. This will be the first time since I was 12 that I haven't gone. It breaks my heart that I can't go. I haven't been with my Christian friends since November, when Brianne and I went to stay at MCC. I miss everyone, and I miss being in that enviroment.
Anyways, I'm tired of complaining and bitching about life. I just needed to get this out. I hope you all don't mind. I'm going to waste another ten minutes, watch Gossip Girl, stuff my face with any junk food I can find in my kitchen, and go to bed really early. Hopefully I won't end up breaking out in tears at some point tomorrow during school.
ps. someone downloaded Google Chrome on the desktop. This makes me pretty happy, since I despise Internet Explorer.
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ReplyDeleteUgh. Being stressed sucks big time. Sorry to hear about your computer and everything else. I know Im just someone you met online but Im always here if you need anything, even if it is just to rant.
ReplyDeleteI love you, come live in Ohio with me.
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