Parts of it were fun. But overall, it just left me feeling left out, mad and really crappy. I did some stuff I probably shouldn't have, and that didn't help one bit. I always want to feel a little more far gone than I am, but then I always regret it afterwards when I can't even grasp what's going on.
Just hanging out with people was fun. Like, Jeremy, Justine, Adriel, Blake and Brittany. Then the other girls who we don't usually hang out with came. I honestly had more fun just sitting with Brittany in Max's truck drinking, and waiting for tires to blow up in the fire.
Once it got really dark, and I was having fun, I did like it better. I pretty much just ran around with my friends, and at one point, Hilary and I were laying on our backs in the grass looking at the stars. I really liked that. For most of the night, I was kind of confused though. I don't like feeling like that. I kept telling myself today that I was never going to repeat last night. I hope I don't. But, knowing me, I will.
We went back to Gabe's after the bonfire, I found my purse in Joel's Jeep (I had left it on the back of Max's truck), so I don't know how that happened. We hung out at Gabe's for a while, then we all ended up falling asleep. I was on the livingroom floor all night, and it was freezing. So when I woke up, my chest and throat hurt, I could barely breathe, and I could barely talk. Right now my lungs are filled up full of crap, and I feel horrible.
Most of the morning we sat on Gabe's kitchen floor just hanging out. I kind of liked that. But it was just so different this time. I know it was the people. I like them, for the most part- sometimes- but I kind of hope they don't come again. It's just weird having them there.
We came back over to the mainland on the 11:30 ferry, my dad picked Sam, Adriel and I up while we were walking to my house, and we hung out there for a while. Adriel's dad came to pick him up, so Sam and I hung out. At 3 we walked back down to the ferry landing so she could go back across. I walked home and showered, and crashed. I got a sunburn on my cheeks too. First one of the year.
My iPod is also broken. There's a huge dent in the back of it. It won't turn on or anything. I feel lost without it. I either have the choice of getting a 2nd generation one like it, or getting a new 4th generation, for about $90 more. Hopefully my mum will help me out. I think getting a brand new one from Apple will be better in the long one than an old one from eBay. I hate not having it. What am I going to do on the bus? I'm going to go nuts.
I know I should say something insightful about this month, but I'm honestly too tired, and too sore. I might just go finish watching Doctor Who and cry over my iPod some more. May she rest in peace. But, I will say that I've had fun this month, and I'm glad I stuck to it, other than the five days that were just screwed up. Thank you everyone who read my blog this month, I've appreciated it.
One last thing: today was my day on the 365project! Go see my video here. It's not my best. I was hurrying, and nervous. But people seem to like it.
Doctor Who: Season 3, Episode 11
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